Hide You're Love Away

iiii'm back.

There is just so much going on right now, I do not even know where to begin. That is incorrect, I know exactly where to begin, Should you have read this when I began it, you would recall and entry titled "Germany. This has almost nothing to do with Germany" upon reading, you will have found several love stories, because well, I am a sucker for the fairy tale, and they are true. In every sense, One of these stories consisted of a girl and a boy blah blah blah they fell in love got married he went to Afghanistan, not much prior to the start of this blog in general, well I am VERY excited to say that tonight, he has arrived home safely. Not only am I very happy for his wife, but would like to thank him, for doing that job, I have known him a long time, and he has always been a good person, but damn did he go and make that old diner proud.


Okay now I am back to not knowing where to begin.

I guess the easiest place to go is relationships, and frankly, I just do not want to go there right now. But then again this usually consists of places I do but do not but do want to go.

Not even my own. Honestly. I see people, know them who are going through all of these crazy relationship craziness and I wish i could just shake them and say walk away, or you will be okay to others.

It is amazing though how well they can all relate even to my own, (past & present) or maybe that is just how we function, or me alone. you take your own dilemma and relate it to either your own life situations, or they help you understand past experiences, and sometimes those things are what helps you help the people around you.

one girl worries her boyfriend will leave her, but she stays, hoping it will work itself out, one wonders what she did wrong to make him want to walk away, but she knew he did not love her all along, one wants to be happy with another, but thinks the failure is inevitable.

What I have come to learn, is that you need to trust you gut, which is in fact easier said then done, for so many reasons, first of all we so naturally cling on to a hope for something we want so badly that we wear glasses to shade away that actuality of a situation. the other reason being is that honestly I think you have to learn yourself before you are able to know what your gut is telling you, intestines are a hard language to learn after all. Not everyone can hear that voice in them. But I think it is mostly that we want something bad enough or long enough, that when the opportunity presents itself, initially all we can do is believe it is what is right.

I guess that is what has been eating away at me so much lately, my own not trusting me gut, even when I have learned how.

So i guess to everyone out there facing any kind of real dilemma, look at it from someone else point of view, really look at the situation as a whole, not just your half, and trust yourself, you can figure it out. and you will eventually get exactly to where you need to be.
and never, ever, let anyone steal your sunshine.