So I have not written in a minute.

to be honest my mind has been racing faster than the speed of light, and I have had more on my mind that i can really say.
It has a been a rough one to say the least.

but for whatever reason, in this very moment I am happy, I am really happy. and considering the fact that I am batshit crazy 93% of the time. I am gonna run with this.

but there is a lot of random nonsense on my mind...so here goes. 

for starts I am extremely excited because I am officially going on a trip to Louisiana to watch my sister graduate, and possibly shank a bitch. But mostly to see my brother and sister.
I cannot believe they are both at the age the have boyfriends and girlfriends, I am not going to lie there is a small part of me more excited to meet Lexi && Mikey. minimal amount I promise.

The next thing is that I get to take a trip to Vermont. I get to see an old friend, and that will be nice.
But I am really excited to travel like I will be. I never got to travel like I will be.
It just makes life a little more worth living.

eventually Ill be going to Arizona, which I wont get into to much detail...but still. 

and the last one is PA, just to splash lagoon, because I want to take Kelsey so there.



In the next few weeks I am going to be celebrating a one year milestone.
while what that milestone is exactly, is far to personal for most people to know, however, what it means to me, as that priceless.
what I can and will say, is that i grew a courage I never fully had before, and have faced in this past year, troubles, lose, joy, friendships I know are forever, self respect, self confidence,  like i have never had in my life. I have bad days, that it seems like its really bad, but I have never been so happy as I have in this past year...so to the people who have been a part of that, and the people who will be there to celebrate that with me...I cannot wait to celebrate all the wonderful things in life we have to look forward to this next year and all the years to come.
were going to hideaways...btw. 

Laying in bed the other night I decided something. I am a really out there kind of person.
the kind of person that wants to climb billboards and sit under the stars for hours, and what I think is that somewhere out there is the kind of person who wants to make that climb with me,
oh and also that i secretly really want someone to sing "for the night I cant remember" to me...that person is basically my soul mate.
okay i am a fucking hopless romantic...I know that will never happen...but hey a girl can get caught up in unrealistic fantasies cant she? 

dont judge me.


hmm what else. . .
oh the super bowl....
was I the only person who REALLY wanted justin timberlake to come on when she sang single ladies?
i mean really how perfect would that have been?
it would have made up for his last trip to the superdome
the timing is right because he is finally coming back to music.
and lets face it...that would have topped all of the commercials.

okay thats really all ive got. for right now.
i honestly just missed watching people pretend to give a shit what I am thinking.


later dudes.