I am Dying.

"Death asked Life, Why do people hate me but love you, Life replied, because I am a joyful lie, and you are such a painful truth."

These words are so true it gives me chills.

I cannot understand hate, or grudges, to be honest they are just childish to me. Everyone, and when I say everyone, I mean even small children, know that we are going to die someday, and that every single person we meet, could very well be gone the next day.

So why is it so easy for people to cling on to such resentments. We all do it. We all receive it as well. I held a resentment towards my father for a long time, and most people who have met him understand how easy task that is, but honestly if there is one thing I have learned it is how pointless that really is, because even if you have a good reason to be angry, it will only cause you more pain in the long run. My dad and grandfather were on bad terms when my grampa passed, and I saw what that did to him. Death is a painful truth because the ones left living feel guilty, about everything. Every fight, every disagreement, over something petty, or something real, every time you did not visit when you should have. We are left wondering if that person knew how we really felt about them. Sometimes that we forgave them a long time ago but were too proud to tell them.
Well, the truth is no, that person did not know that. What they knew is what you left them with. If you and another person truly just cannot get along, love them from afar. That is okay, but I am sorry, if you are holding a grudge over something completely stupid from months or even years ago, I am sorry but you deserve that guilt when that person is gone.
and again I feel the need to say, we all do it, myself included.

All grudges do is make everyone else around you uncomfortable. Especially the pointless ones. I can name two in my life. One i am the guilty one of holding a grudge I really should not be holding anymore, and one that I am being held to a grudge for something honestly completely irrelevant to not only the person holding the grudge, but at this point my own life as well.
The thought of both make me ill.  very, very ill. but back to my point.
All they really do is make everyone not involved uncomfortable. for instance...A grandmother whose one grandchild said terrible horrible things to the other grandchild, which caused hard feelings between the parents (her children) and because of how uncomfortable she just does not really say much of anything anymore. to anyone. Or a bride, who is so happy and in love, but she has to worry about her two cousins getting along as bridesmaids because they had a stupid fight months ago. And then there are the people who feel like they are being forced to take sides. That is probably the worst one, because frankly, if persons A and B cannot get along, that really has absolutely nothing to do with persons C - Z.

All I am trying to say is that we are not going to be here forever. And honestly, that is not a cop out for the old, because old age does not make you right, you are very much in the wrong sometimes too. And the young die too. I think that the most of us have felt regret when it was too late, and that is a feeling I would not wish on anyone. So say what you have to say, hash it out, but then be done with the situation, not the person. figure it out. good lord. I hope anyone who reads this can think of at least one person they should forgive. do it. And if your on the receiving end, be accepting, because the majority of the time, the reason they are not being forgiving, is that they are too proud. When it all really comes down to it, is the issue you are having, worth never having that person in your life again? So if you cannot forgive them while they are here, well, then do not miss them if they are gone tomorrow.